The only thing running in my mind

well. i'm back being *maybe* the saddest girl in the world. being gloomy with all of the heartaches, the pain, the hurt. yes, for once again, I'm feeling it. I don't exactly know why, why in the world must I fall again for the wrong guy. I don't expect things to be perfect. I just want things to go on the right way, without sadness and hurt. forgetting you is like finding a needle in a stack of hay. yes. hard to do. moving on is like...well? easy to say, but hard to do. I tried but then I failed. I keep on trying but the same shit happens, it hurts even more. it hurts knowing you moved on and looking for another one. when you said to me you need some time on your own. i get it. and the reason why i keep on holding on is feelings. maybe, for you my feelings doesn't exist anymore, but yours will still exist in mine. i get your reasons, i know the truth. don't you know how little things can hurt a girl? even just a little small one? well, i bet you don't understand a girl's feelings. I don't know, this is like the third or fourth or fifth you told me to move on. yes I tried, but again, I failed. If only if i can ignore you and be happy, I will. I want to. but this time, I can't. this is cause i'm still not over you and I still can't let you go. I still can't believe how somebody i thought would make me happy, would make me forget about my pasts suddenly made me so down. and how I still love you with every little pieces. :')