This is awkward. I'm feeling weird. Everything around me seems to be very awkward. This makes me look like a total freak. I feel terrible and lonely. I feel very far away from everyone around. I feel like I'm living with my own world and only with my own problems. I do feel like nobody's ever there for me. Not to cheer me up at all. And everything I do seems like always wrong to everyone. And when there's a problem, it seems like it's always my fault. No friends left, no families left to make me smile, and I am really on my own. I really wanna know if there's something wrong but I know it's my fault -- again. For those who have said my best friend, I wonder where are you now? I guess you never really mean to say that. Total bullshit and a big lie.
Kenyataan sekarang beda sama kata-kata lo semua yang bilang 'kita sahabatan kok' 'gue bakal selalu ada buat lo kok' 'kita harus sahabatan sampai tua nanti yaa' dan lain-lain. Beda banget loh, guys. Agak nyesek ngeliat sikap kalian yang, well, beda dari kata-kata lo semua. Ada sahabat yang saling ngelupain? Ada sahabat yang adanya cuma pas ada maunya aja? Kayaknya emang lo salah ngartiin 'sahabat' sama 'temen deket' ya.
Maaf deh, kalau keliatannya kayak nyindir. Nggak maksud nyindir kok, cuma pengen lo tau, dan ngeluarin unek-unek aja.
